My work took me to Austin, Texas, earlier this week--a drive I always enjoy because the route takes me through country dotted by small farms and mid-sized cattle ranches. Along the way, various breeds of cattle languish in the hot Texas sun by water holes and beneath live oak trees. Whatever their circumstances, whatever the weather, the cows don't seem to mind. They are content.
On my trip to Austin I was reminded that human beings alone are capable of boredom. Cows may look bored, but they are not. That's what Thomas Dubay says in his book Faith and Certitude: Can We Be Sure of the Things That Matter Most To Us? In the opening chapter of this book, Dubay speaks about "existential boredom" as "an apathy about life itself", and points out that, while it may be common, it is not preprogrammed into our genes. He described such persons in the following words: "When a person is existentially bored, he may experience occasional pleasures, but for the most part his life is dreary, uninteresting, loveless. To him it also appears useless. Though he may retain some capacity for sense pleasures, he is incapable of the thrill of joy. He does not respond to reality. Splendid scenery, beautiful music, intellectual keenness, a sparkling personality all leave him untouched and unmoved. He may know the dictionary definition of love, but he has no experience of it. He is a stranger to enthusiasm, and he feels both rootless and restless."
Why are there seemingly so many such people in the world today? And what causes this state of existence? When our children were small and would exclaim, "I'm bored", we would quickly reply: "You are bored because you are boring. Go do something fun or interesting." It seemed intuitively like the right response at the time and, in part, it was true. As Dubay notes, there are probably several reasons for modern existential boredom--the cultural environment, interpersonal relations--but, most important is a person's use of freedom. Boredom has to do with "the quality of the person, not the state of the world."
In the end, however, humans are different from cows because they can experience an emptiness that cows cannot. Cows can be content with "cowness". But, human beings can never be ultimately content with the limitations of "humanness". We have inside us an "empty ache", as Dubay terms it, that cannot be completely filled in this material existence. That is "precisely the reason that every adult either is in hot pursuit of the One or is frantically seeking the many. Either we have God who does fill or we are endlessly pursuing things which do not."